"Finally she lets herself think about how it feels:
to be so frightened that you almost can’t breathe
to speed so fast and be so completely out of control
to know the meaning of helplessness
to spin across a shining space knowing any moment you might end up hurt, but likewise, all the same, like plus wise you just might not."
Who am I?
I’m a disgrace that’s who I am. I embarrass myself in work.. Probably have a warning in work now as well. I am crap at keeping in contact with my friends sometimes and never show/tell them how much they mean to me. I am not one to be vulnerable as I have always learnt that once you break down that wall and show someone that side to you they can then easily hurt you.. And I am terrified of getting hurt. I like having my own space but hate being alone at the same time and I’m someone who is scared that one day when everything else has gone… I won’t have one person to call knowing I need their help. So who am I? I’m a person who pushes people away in the hope that they don’t see the real me because the real me has nothing good to show.
"Don’t ever feel bad for making a decision that upsets other people. You are not responsible for their happiness. You are responsible for your happiness."